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I've had such a rough 18 months grieving my son, helping my other 4 kids get through this tragedy and dealing with the loss of 99% of our friends an family. There are no words to adequately describe it except that I was drowning. I've found a lot of support from this blogging community the last few months and now I'm ready to be happy again. God keeps saying "no" to another baby month after month so I'm trying to figure out how to get back to that joyful place despite continous disapointments. I know that I'm on the right track but I'm not there yet.
Thank you for bringing attention to this day.
Hugs,
Trisha
I am in the process of losing the baby that we have waited for a year to conceive. We have not chosen a name for our baby, but are fresh & deep in the grieving process.
I would greatly, greatly appreciate prayers.
I am praying for you right now! I remember the heaviness of that fresh deep pain not so long ago in my own life. God is with you. I pray for strength, comfort, peace and healing to flood your broken heart. Dear Jesus, flood Amber with Your presence. In Your name, Amen.
♥ Amber ♥
God bless all of our little angels.
I have three babies in heaven. Twins Hunter and Heather miscarried in July 2001 and Emily Grace May 3,2008 carried in my womb for 35 weeks and 5 days and lived in my husband and my arms for 17 minutes and went to live forever more with Jesus.
You are right Angie...it's everyday, not just today.
(((HUGS)))
I to will be in prayer today for your sweet baby and all babies lost from this world!
Lots of love and hugs, Ang.
Jaron - Dec 24/00
Chavonne - March 21/01
Thanks for remembering - God is good!
Cxx
My great-grandmother also lost a child shortly after birth when his umbilical cord hemorrhaged. I know he was always in their thoughts as well, though they knew him such a short time.
Praying for you and many others today!
<3
Joshua Beck 12.6.07
Grace and peace,
Ash
Mercy and Grace would be five years old, they would have started school this year.
They weren't alone, there were others, earlier losses.
My heart is torn, torn in two as it longs to be in two places that can not meet, I am a mother on both sides of the veil... to go Home is to leave three children behind here on earth, but to stay here means that I cannot hold my babies in Heaven. Torn. Torn between the joy of having children to raise here, and knowing the blessing this is, the gift... but missing my other children just the same. Heartbroken... but at peace in the Lord who heals, who redeems. This too, will not be... unredeemed.
With love,
Maria
My prayers are also with you...
Hugs, Blessings,
In Him,
JD
I hate that so many of are a part of this group. The support is wonderful, but there shouldn't even be a "lost babies club". Thank you for your prayers, as we have prayed for you so often.
I will be praying today with you.
http://carleighmckenna.blogspot.com
I also think often of my friend's baby, who died in the womb at 9 months pregnant. Her mother continued to carry her until going into labor on her own, and delivering at home with her midwife. She was treated horribly by the coroner and police for this.
I think and pray a lot on these babies and the many others I know of. Thank you for taking the time to do this for us.
I am also aunt to two in heaven: Earl Steven (born still 9.29.92), and most recently, Sadie Grace (born still at 37 weeks 4.29.09).
I am remembering them today, as they have touched my heart deeply.
Thank you so much for your ministry. Yes, this happens to so many woman. Yes, it happens frequently. But that doesnt make the INDIVIDUAL pain any easier to bare. You have allowed a place where we can feel valid in our continued grief, and what a sweet ministry that it. May all the angels applaud to the words you no doubtedly will hear one day, "Well done good and faithful servant." Blessings....
Thank you for saying that each of these babies matter. I never got to hold or see our baby, but she was our baby, and I miss her...
It is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness.... some cities celebrated this day with a Walk to Remember ours here in Louisville was held on Sept 20th 2009.
I am a strong woman, I am the mother of angels. ^V^
I have 2 children that watch over me and 2 that I watch over.
Sitting at the Lords feet,
^V^ Skyler 6/23/01
^V^ Bailey 1/10/02
And
Here on earth, my 2 only's 14 years apart
Zachary 4/89
Our long waited blessing~
Princess M 12/02
Remembering Audrey on this special remembrance day.
www.remembertessa.com
I have four angel babies in heaven - one to a miscarriage at 16 weeks, twin girls born too early, and one lost to the battle of cancer. I keep hoping it will get easier, but life is full of these moments, these days, these seasons...
Holding each of us in prayer, sending hugs to those of us left behind {hugs}
I commented for the first time on your blog last year on this date. This time last year it had only been three weeks since I had my miscarriage. A miscarriage that occured four weeks after the sudden death of my husband.
A year has now gone by for both of my loses. I'm healing and getting better, although I still think about my husband, our baby and all the what if's every single day.
Thank you for your prayers today as we all remember our babies.
I haven't cried for my Micah in a long time, but for some reason since the minute I began reading your post, I have cried and cried and cried. My 9 and 6 year olds know they have a brother in heaven, and talk about him a lot. (even though it was too early to tell, my husband and I both have felt like God told us our baby was a boy) I often think about what he would look like, what things he would like to do, what grade he would be in at school.... Like someone else said, it's hard to think that had he lived, I wouldn't have my precious daughter now. But someday we will all be together forever, and I can't wait!
Micah Jonathan
July 5, 1999
Thank you, Angie.
Thank you for remembering and mentioning this day on your blog. This is a heavy time of the year for me. Seven years ago this month my husband and I lost our first baby to an early miscarriage around 8-12 wks. And on November 13th we will be celebrating our twin daughter's 2 nd birthday and remembering her twin brother Case Grant who was born still that day so unexpectedly. I've seen God do so much in my life in these 2 very short years, yet it still hurts so very badly, especially around his birthday. I miss him and all that I dreamt he would be like. Please pray for our family as we continue this grieving journey. My almost 6 year old son still cries for the baby brother he never got to see, and has now started to tell me he wants me to have another baby. Try explaining having had a tubal to a pre-schooler. Uggghhh. People don't know how this just seems to go on and on. Praying for your family and your sweet Audrey.
Thank you for sharing your story of Audrey with us- everytime I listen to her song I'm touched.
Love to you and yours-
Mary-Dare Sharp
Despite our best efforts, we ended up telling EVERYONE we knew. We were so absolutely excited and we just wanted to shout it from the roof tops. A week later our sweet baby went to be with Jesus. That was over a year ago and our arms are still empty. I miss my baby daily and wish I oculd be dressing him up for his first Halloween this year.
Thank you for letting me share.
We elected to carry her until it was time for her to be born which ended up at pretty much exactly 35 weeks when my water broke. She was born about 2 hours later via c/s.
We miss her each day. Not a day goes by when I don't think of her. Love you Megan Grace!
Bless the sweet families that endure this unimaginable pain.
I saw this last night. I signed the petition already.
I am on my way out of town, but as soon as I get where I'm going, I plan to write the reps of the addresses listed on the petition page as well.
My thoughts are with all who has suffered a loss.
Love,
Tonya
I'm so sorry for your loss.... Audrey is remembered! Your blog, brought comfort to me, when I was told that my son would not live- Read on my blog, under "Never Forget" post
http://www.ordinaryinspirations.blogspot.com
I just want to THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK you for putting the info about Wyatt... you didn't have to, but you chose to care!
For that, I am forever grateful!
Love you tons!
Hugs,
Traci
Thanks for letting us share!
Prayers for you today Angie and all of the women and their families who have experienced the loss of a little baby.
We are remembering our second child, we believe to be a baby girl, that we lost in a missed miscarriage last year at 10 weeks. We will never forget.
Angie,
Thank you for your blog. I can't tell you how much you have helped me through this journey. I took me several months to read your entire blog, but it seemed that I always needed to "hear" what you had to say on that day. I know God was at work when my sister found your story. Thank you for all you do.
God is sovereign. . .
I lost a baby at 10 weeks on 6/9/08. I'll always remember that baby "Z" and look forward to meeting my child in heaven one day!
Thank you for allowing everyone to share. It helps to know that someone understands that the pain never really goes away.
Praise the Lord above that I am pregnant (due again in February). We are praying that this Feb. will be much better than our last two. Our hearts will always love our two babies who have gone to be with Jesus before us. We think of them and miss them each day.
Although my heart still hurts, I am thankful for healing and peace. God is good. I pray for each of you as you go through your own journeys of grief and healing.
I too hate that term -- aborted naturally, missed abortion. It hurts me to my core as well.
Much love to you,
Maria
In Him,
Patrice
Angie, thank you so much for your wonderful post. I am so happy that there are places for us mommy's to mourn and be supported by others. My husband's aunt told us about losing a little girl 50 years ago and how she never got to see her or hold her and it just wasn't talked about.
I'm so sorry to hear about what has happened in India. I can't imagine the horror for all those familes. :o(
I have a sweet little boy waiting for me in Heaven. My son, Ben, was born prematurely at 22 weeks gestation and did not survive. I blogged about him here: http://jbemom.blogspot.com/2009/09/he-gives-and... I am blessed to have two children here with me, but I await the time when Jesus calls us home and I can be reunited with my son!
"A butterfly lights beside us like a sunbeam
For a moment, its glory and beauty belong
To our world, but then it flies on again...
Leaving us forever changed."
It was an incredibly hard season of life, as was the infertility that followed us for the next 2 1/2 years.
Today - Glory to God - we are 14 1/2 weeks pregnant with TWINS. Praying everyday that it is in His will for me to carry these miracles to term, deliver healthy babies, and by His grace, be able to raise them.
Thanks be to God.
Praying for all of you who have lost, and are still waiting to be redeemed.
Praying for all of the others who are missing their babies today too.
I lost Joshua Tanner and Emma Faith to early miscarriages during 4 years of infertility- So thankful for the hope that someday I will get to kiss their sweet faces like I do their baby brother everyday. So thankful that God has blessed us with a sweet miracle! I'm sure all of our babies are playing in heaven at Jesus' feet!
I lost my first pregnancy to early miscarriage, and my second pregnancy brought me my daughter. I lost my baby girl Peyton to Infant Leukemia at just 28 days old. Today I remember her with my candle, as well as all the babies whose mothers grieve them today. Thank you for remembering Peyton in your prayers, Audrey will be in mine as well.
My sister lost her child probably 1 yr ago to genetic defects in utero!
Some day we will all be together and see our children!!! :)
Doula Mama Pam
Grace Anne was stillborn at 35 weeks gestation on April 8, 2004. We aren't completely sure why but I (her mommy) was very sick with pre-eclampsia and HELP syndrome. She passed suddenly but remains forever in our hearts. She was a beautiful baby girl with lots of dark hair. I'll never know what color her eyes are....well, actually I will someday and that's the best part! I miss her every day. She would be 5.
Also, my family is grieving the loss of my 11 year old nephew, Seth, who died suddenly two weeks ago today. His 12th birthday would be this Monday, the 19th. Please pray for us.
Lisa in Okla
Sending my love and prayers your way!
Jessica
Since 10/15 last year, I've lost three more: twins at 10w on 10/19/08, and my sweet Duncan Thomas at 25w on 5/19/09.
Oh my babies, all four of you, I miss you.
Thanks so much for allowing a place where others can comment.
We lost our baby "L" two weeks ago today at 12 weeks gestation.
Reading the comments below helps me to feel that I am not along.
Thank-you so much.
My son is Joel James.
He was born at 40w5d on June 9, 2009 after a blissfully easy pregnancy.
Due to birth trauma he never took a breath on his own. His heart was very strong and it beat steadily for nearly five days while a ventilator breathed for him. During that time doctors did everything they could think of to help his brain heal.
It didn't. His brain was completely dead.
We kissed him off to Jesus on June 13, 2009.
I know I will see him again. I know heaven is real. But I have to live here until I get there, and that is hard every single day.
Thank you for providing this space. We've been praying for all of the Smiths for a long time. Audrey is missed here too. I hope she is showing Joel her best dance moves in heaven.
Much love,
SJ
Thank you for this today and for remembering these sweet babies. As a former TN resident, I will be siging that petition. Thanks for sharing!
Because of your post I sent my Mom an e-mail expressing my sorrow for the loss. Thanks for bringing this to our attention and sharing your beautiful story.
Little Wyatt counted and he was a precious life, whether the state of TN gets that or not. Thanks for sharing this with us all as well.
I wrote my complete story on my blog today if you would like to read it.
www.jsimpsonfam.blogspot.com
No matter how much time has past I will always remember the joy, hopes and dreams that those babies brought to our family. Unfortunately I will never forget the feeling of hurt, sadness and loss that followed after.
Praying for all the mommy’s and daddy’s....we will see/meet our kids one day.
I don't feel sad on this day the way I do on so many other days because I don't have a special memory from this date. It isn't the day my daughter was born or the day she died. It isn't the day I learned two of my pregnancies were ending in miscarriage or even the day I found out I was pregnant with one of those babies I now hold in my heart instead of my arms.
This is a day ABOUT moving forward to me, about helping raise awareness. And awareness is the first step to change. Change in laws that will provide more families with recognition of their babies' lives and changes in the way health care professionals treat these families.
Thank you for being a voice in this journey so many women face. I set up a virtual candle page on my blog for readers to light a candle in honor of the loved little ones who have left us in this life. Feel free to check it out if you feel so inclined!
Warmly,
Heidi
Now 4 years later and just 8 weeks ago today, I gave birth to twins, Lila & Cole. At 22 weeks, my water broke unexpectedly and my daughters heart stopped beating. Unfortunately, the placentas were attached so my son was born with a heartbeat and was with us for a short time. There is no medical explanation.
All of our children are with our Father in heaven. We are proud to honor them today and we will be lighting candles for them tonight at 7:00pm for the "Wave of Light" in memorial for this special day of rememberance.
Audrey's story has touched us in a way that you would never believe. I hope one day to be able to tell you about it. Thank you for listening and obeying what God would have you do with her story.
Laura
We have lost 3 babies and are pregnant with our fourth. She has surpassed her brothers/sisters by reaching the 26th mark, something I wasn't able to do with my other three. Some may say that we are replacing our three angel babies with Sprout but it's not like that. She will know that we have three babies in Heaven and that we will meet them there when the Day comes.
Our first baby was due 12.27.07 and we couldn't wait. Married just over a year, finding out we were pregnant was fantastic news. Three days before we found out about our baby, we found out that my husband's 17 year old cousin was pregnant. After our loss, I literally could not stand to be in the same room with her. Sadly, we found out at around13 weeks that I had miscarried, only to have my body "forget" what to do. My doctor suggested a D&C and I was too dumb to know anything else. I had the D&C on 06.27.07at our outpatient hospital center, where my heart-rate spiked and then plummetted right in front of my husband. I slept, with the help of medication for a week and jumped into a deep depression for months.
Our second baby was due on 09.05.08 and on 1.17.08, I began spontaneous miscarrying. I was only about 5 weeks along and my hCg levels were low to begin with. But that doesn't lessen the pain. Physically, it was worse than either D&C but I think I was able to cope with this loss better because I had the physical and the emotional rollercoasters going at the same time - as opposed to have a D&C and then dealing with delayed emotions.
Our third baby was due 05.22.08 and we were able to see this babe on ultrasound at 8 weeks. Unbeknown to us, the baby passed literally within 24 hours after seeing him/her on ultrasound but my body didn't recognize it and it wasn't caught until 09.07.08. I was set up for an emergency D&C the following morning because I had begun to dilate. Long story short, we had the D&C and were placed on the L&D floor. It was horrendous. But we made it through. We survived.
And we are stronger for it.
I have not lost a baby but I will be praying for you and others who have. I will also pray for those in India who have now lost their homes.
I pray blessings upon you this day and every day,
Jen
Thank you for sharing Angie, thank you for caring.
http://relationactions.blogspot.com/
http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/fightingmatthew
http://paige-turningthepaige.blogspot.com/2009/...
I am thinking of you, Angie and your beautiful Audrey on today.
Last August (8/19/08), our precious second blessing slipped from this world into heaven at 12 weeks. Even though my husband and I thank our Lord continuously for our first born who fills our life with such joy and love, there is still a hole in our hearts.
In my attempt to stay strong in my Christian journey and through my pain, I stumbled upon your blog after googling countless sites for Christians going through a miscarriage. You have been such a comfort to me.
As it says in 2 Corinthians 1:3-4, "Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with he comfort we ourselves have received from God." You were that person comforting me, via the internet. Thank you for sharing with us, those who hold to the assurance that we will see our babies when we get to heaven.
You and your family are in my prayers as well as all those who have lost precious little ones.
In His Love,
Christine
In June 2008, I gave birth to a healthy baby boy. My pregnancy was not easy, but nothing went wrong. We assumed that my following pregnancies would be the same.
How wrong we were.
I found out I was pregnant again with a due date of August 17 2009. I miscarried that baby at 11 weeks.
I became pregnant again with a due date of January 3 2010, and miscarried at 13 weeks.
Just a few weeks ago I miscarried my third baby at 5 weeks. Due date was May 23 2010.
Rather than hoping for a miracle in another baby, I'm beginning to think that my 16 month old son IS my miracle baby. I am so blessed to have him.
I wrote to you about the loss of our son in May of this year. I remember this post from last year and thinking about how sad it was, only to miscarry seven months later at seven weeks, five days. It was awful - the hardest thing I've ever been through, but I have come to realize that I am SO blessed.
God chose ME as a vessel, to carry that sweet baby for seven weeks and five days, and straight into Heaven. He thought me worthy to carry that baby? What a blessing. And part of what helped me realize that is Audrey's song! I downloaded "I Will Carry You" from iTunes and I just LOVE it.
Thank you for offering to pray for our son, Daniel Joshua. I'll be lighting a candle tonight for him and everyone else's babies, including your precious Audrey. God bless you for your ministry!
Praying for you all and hoping peace will attend you today!
The last few days I have been searching the internet for something and when I found your crosspoint video on youtube about plan b and your little one I knew that was it, it was God had sent me looking for.
On October 13, 2009 my husband and I went in for our 2nd babies first ultrasound. We weren't sure what to expect after I started bleeding a week ago but the blood never turned bright so I carried that hope that God was blessing me with #2. When we went in and did the ultrasound there was NO baby in the uterus, after he went searching he thought he saw something on my left side. After he explained that he thought that I had an ectopic pregnancy. From there he rushed me to labs and for another ultrasound. My labs showed a viable pregnancy but the Dr. wasn't sure where in my body. By 2 p.m. I was in emergency surgery to remove the baby from my left tube. The baby was too large and they ended up removing my left tube also. I have sat here for days wondering why God would put me through this, it is truly hard for me to understand his meaning.
Finley Grace, born April 4, 2007 at 20 weeks 5 days
Caroline Grace, born February 28, 2008 at 24 weeks 2 days
www.blakeanddaniellemalone.blogspot.com
Nate Garrison Cloud Born into Heaven May 6, 2009 at 23 weeks gestation
Oh how our hearts break over the loss of this child...but we know there will be a day with no more tear and no more crying. Today we have hope in Jesus.
Remembering your sweet baby also today.
There were times we were overcome by the darkness and then found ourselves dazzled by the light of our Lord. There were times when we thought our hearts couldn't break any more...but they did...and we discovered that God tenderly held us even then. There were times when I held onto my grief so fiercely it threatened to destroy me, but I learned that when I released it to God, He could transform it into something helpful and useful...maybe even beautiful. The journey has been hard, but also transforming. I have been down roads of despair, places I never wanted to travel...and found my Savior waiting for me at every turn. And I am beyond thankful for His sacrifice on the cross, His love, His blood...
God bless~
Rachel
May you also know His comfort and beauty, His truth and peace
Two of my best friend's sisters have had multiple miscarriages as well.
If anyone reading this does not know about ectopic pregnancies, please research them and spread the word to young women. I know of a womam who died because her ectopic pregnancy was misdiagnosed as a heart condition. I had never heard of them when I had mine and was in grave danger when they discovered mine.
Thank you Angie, for giving all of us place to find support and comfort.
Mimi
my daughter Rachel was born March 13th, 2009 - perfectly healthy and whole.
After many years of despair and living in the darkness of 10 miscarriages, my doctor diagnosed me with a blood clotting disorder called MTFHR and i am now a proud single mother of a very unexpected beautiful baby girl.
Most of the miscarriages were within the first 6 to 8 weeks of my pregnancies, 2 of them were at 4 months - one was a boy (Aiden, lost 6/29/06). I can still hear the ultrasound technician telling me that my uterus was empty.........
Rachel was worth the wait and I am grateful for God's grace.
I would love to tell you that I LOVE to get online just to read your very inspiring stories and things that have gone on in your life as well as others that you know,knew or have been involved in.
I have a healthy son that is three and a healthy daughter that is five, it really shocks me as I sit and think that before my two healthy children were born, I had a total of four losses. Thank you for taking the time on this very important day and for offering for all of us to leave little messages. Thank you for your kind words and thoughts and prayers for each and every one of us. As you pray and think of all of us, we do of you and your family too.
I love you girl, although I do NOT know you!
Jessica(Birmingham, Al)
My mom had 2 other miscarriages. I cannot begin to express the concerns I have about trying to have my own children but I know what ever happens God will be by my husband's and my side and HE will receive all the glory.
xoxo
Mommy to Jenna Belle
Thanks for remembering. Praying for you today as well.
Elissa
Bronx, NY
I have three angels in heaven... all passed away through miscarraige. I pray for them and miss them everyday but today seems extra hard.
Love to you all...
We love her and miss her beyond expression, but trust that she is with our savior in heaven and will hold her again.
Remembering your Audrey also.
I had a perfect pregnancy and gave birth to a baby girl back in August 2006. Her name was Madelyn Rose and she was born at 37 weeks after a very long labor that resulted in a c-section. Everything went from happy to absolutely devastating the moment she was born. She had very serious birth defects which were the result of a genetic condition called Pfeiffer Syndrome Type II. She was whisked away to the NICU while I was being sewn up. About 3 hours after her birth and a very negative CAT scan of her brain (she had very little brain tissue), my husband and I made the hardest decision of our lives and removed her from the ventilator. We took her back to our room and held her until she passed away the next morning.
It was a very hard recovery process both mentally and physically and a year later we found out that we were expecting another little one. Around 7 weeks I started spotting and went into my doctor's office "just to be safe". I had an ultrasound and they could see no baby, just a mass of cells. Again the wind was knocked out of me and time just blurred together as we started talking about mutant cells, cancer and a D&C. I had my D&C on my husband's 29th birthday and waited anxiously for the results. They came back in a couple weeks as a Partial Molar Pregnancy which is where 2 sperm fertilized one egg at exactly the same time. It results in 3 sets of genetic material which is why the cells went crazy. I had to monitor my levels until they went to zero and then we had to wait 6 months from then to try to get pregnant again.
We started trying to concieve again but felt God urging us to adopt, so that is what we did. We submitted our application for adoption from South Korea in September 2008 and was matched with our son, Brandon Hye-seong in March 2009. On the day we got the long awaited travel call that our son was ready to come home I got a positive pregnancy test.
My son has been home for 3 months and I am currently 18.5 weeks pregnant, due in March 2010. It has been a long road and, on this day, I am remebering my little Madelyn and the "baby" that could have been.
Thank you,
Jen
www.ingodstimenotmine.blogspot.com
Couldn't write about my loss this year, so I linked to the story on my blog today. Sometimes there is more sting to the memories, and sometimes sharing is easy. This year, I have found the pain to be more evident. Not sure why.
I have three healthy, happy, beautiful children. I have two who are with Jesus.
Blessed. Joyful. Loved. Remembrance.
Maria
I lost my first child to a miscarriage this past February at 7 1/2 weeks after struggling with infertility for a year and a half. We named her Hopie and miss her so much. We can't wait until we get to meet her in Heaven...
I also remember my sweet Joshua, miscarried at 8 weeks this past January 30th. I am due with our son, Samuel, January 30th of 2010. God is faithful.
Thank you also for acknowledging miscarraiges, and their devastating loss. I loved my Joshua before he was even conceived, and will long for him until I meet him and hold him in Heaven.
Thank you for remembering all the babies waiting on us in Heaven.
paige
I am praying for all those who have lost children.
My heart is breaking for some "babies" in Cambodia right now--girls who are 5 and 6 years old being sold as sex slaves. My friend Jen is over there ministering to these broken little girls, and I desperately want Jesus to rescue them and make them whole.
Love you, Angie. Praying for your hurting heart today.
To grieve is to have loved....
xoxo,
Erika
I had a d&c. We never knew the sex of th e baby, but I always felt it was a boy. I named him Brady Edward. His due date was April 20, 2008...I became pregnant that month. We now have a beautiful baby girl, Libby, who is 9 months old.
Thinking of all the Mommies out there waiting on their babies...
ke
Thanks, and I have sweet little Audrey in my thoughts today - Kelley, Grayson's mommy forever
http://tutusandchoochoos.blogspot.com
I lost my first and only pregnancy at 9 weeks...
http://tenthousandtonone.blogspot.com/2009/03/s...
Prayers for a pregnancy are much appreicated.
Thank you for sharing your story and letting us share ours.
Today we are remembering our three precious babies in heaven: Covenant Hope, Glory Hesed, and Promise Anastasis. We know that God's sovereign purpose is for our best good and His greatest glory. So we praise Him, although the pain is indeed daily. I miss all three of these children every hour of my life. I am so eager to meet them someday on the glorious streets of paradise.
May God be praised today as we remember His sovereignty in our families!
Even more than that though my heart aches for the friends of mine who have lost babies who could be seen, touched, and kissed. I especially ache for Todd & Angie and my friends Jodie and Dave who lost Brandon in the 3rd trimester. Jodie said to me today that the loss was 11 years ago, but it still feels like yesterday.
Continuing to pray in Seattle!
Romans 8:35, 37 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? ...Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us.
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Praying for your mommy's heart too.
Kris
my heart was heavy for you today, angie, so i decided to check in on your blog. now i know why. love to you, friend.
~tam
Sarah
This day last year was the first time I had ever written down that I had a miscarriage. Almost 3 years after I miscarried I hadn't really delt with the pain. It was so theraputic just to type those words.....My name is Rae, and I miscarried my 1st and only pregnancy on February 1, 2006, at 9 weeks. My baby was due on September 11, 2006.
This miscarriage has been followed by almost 4 years of our journey with infertility. We had no idea this is what God had planned for us. After years of doctors, needles, pills, ultrasounds...and the worst part....the emotional roller coaster, my arms are still empty. I am praying that God fills my empty arms, and all of your arms that long to be full.
Thanks again, Angie, for your thoughtfulness and love to serve your GOD!
My heart goes out to all of you. This is not an easy road and many don't understand the pain that we carry with us. Thank you, Angie for being there for all of us.
To all the others who have had children graduate to Heaven, my prayers go out to you all...
Thank you for this post. Your family is beautiful, and I weep when I read of your loss, pain, and faith. You are an inspiration to me.
Angie, thank you so much for your honesty and sharing your story with everyone. I have found comfort in knowing that I am not alone in my feelings.
May 30th I lost our 3rd child. Lilliana Grace. I was in labor, got up to use the restroom, abrupted and even with an emergency c-section, the doctors were too late. That was my story for 3 months. The results showed that our baby girl had Tetralogy of Fallot and because of that, her lungs weren't developed as they should have been. Our baby girl would have left us whether I abrupted or not.
I accepted her death the moment I awoke from the surgery but I truly laughed when my doctor told me the results. I felt as if the abruption was God taking my baby the easiest way he could. He took her before I could see her born and struggle for air.
I deal with our loss of her in so many different ways. Some days are great(as I am sure most of you know) and lately, the days are really hard to bare. I would love for May 30th to be the last mother to ever go through this but I am know I am not the first and not the last.
My heart aches for those who feel the pain I do. So much sadness and yet God is still so good!
aimrogmerritt.blogspot.com
I'm in the middle of one of those nights where the pain strangles the sleep right from me. I've come to your blog to find the encouragement I've been granted so many other times. I know that the true encouragement comes from our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, but He has so graciously introduced me to you.
Tomorrow our Anna Elizabeth would have been four years old. This is something I cannot fathom. How has it been four years since that first whispered birthday party? We've since been blessed five more times. Two of those blessings are snug and safe in our home, sleeping soundly this chilly night. Three are singing praises to the Lord Jesus with their sister, Anna.
I know in my heart and mind that they are where we all yearn to be, yet I selfishly wish I could hold them here. I wish I could see them with our four living children. I wish I knew what color their eyes are. I wish I could slip my fingers through their hair. Just once, I wish I could soothe their sleepy cry.
I wish that, just once, I could whisper, "I love you." while I held them in my arms.
It is just past 2:00 am and I've not blown the candles out because it would be like saying goodbye all over again.
We lost Anna Elizabeth (12 weeks gestation) four years ago, Benjamin Gabriel (14 weeks gestation) this past July, and two more teeny tiny lives at 5 weeks gestation in August and September.
I am blessed beyond measure to know that I alone was given the oh so special task of carrying those little lives while God HImself knit them together ... preparing them for His Kingdom! How amazing is that? To have been apart of something so huge, even if it was for such a short time.
God is faithful and God is good, He's the one that awakens me from when the pain makes me numb.
Angie, thank you so much for sharing so deeply and letting us love your Audrey Caroline.
Thank you for inviting us to share and be a part of this journey with you, as you encourage others in your pain.
Today I remember my Sadie Isabella, born March 26, 2009. She went to Heaven unexpectedly on April 4, 2009 due to undiagnosed congenital heart defects.
Yesterday, I walked over and picked up the bag that the hospital gave me full of newborn "need" items. I had not looked inside before, assuming I would have plenty of time to do it, and unaware that my time with Sadie would be limited to nine days. I peeked inside the bag to see what special items lay inside. Tiny diapers, pacifiers, breast pads and more. I looked around the room at all of the baby blankets and neatly folded items that have gone untouched for months. Then I wept on the floor, as many of you have probably done.
As I did so, I remembered something someone told me this week. You will cry, and you will be in the pit, but you will know that God has not left you. Even in the pain, He will be there. I knew that He saw me and that He knew my pain. Please carry us Lord. Help us to feel your presence and know that you are there.
Just having passed the 6 month time frame seems surreal, for to me it is as though only 2 months have passed. Someone asked me if I knew it would still feel this to be such a difficult journey at 6 months since the loss. The thought never really crossed my mind, for it is as though part of my life stopped that day. My friend's baby who was born at the same time has begun eating solid food. How can this be? I still think of him as a newborn. Time has passed much more quickly than ever before.
Today I also remember Lukey, Audrey, Copeland, Hosea, Caleb, and Emily. Babies who are together, in Heaven. We can't wait to meet you again sweet ones.
This week, I witnessed a conversation between two preschool friends. One said to me, "Look at the picture, you are holding your baby". My son who is 4 turned to his 3 year old friend and said, "That's my baby sister Sadie". She said, "I know, and she's in Heaven with my brother". Two sweet innocent souls who love their siblings and share their pain with one another.
Dear Lord, as my friend prayed with me, may we live here on earth with one foot in Heaven. We do not understand your ways, please help us to trust you.
Bless you Angie, and much love to you.
Sarah
Ephesians 1:4 -7 says: "For he chose us in him before the creation of the world to be holy and blameless in his sight. In love he predestined us to be adopted as his sons through Jesus Christ, in accordance with his pleasure and will— to the praise of his glorious grace, which he has freely given us in the One he loves. In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the riches of God's grace."
You've asked for it, know and believe that he gives it freely - not because of us, but because of Him, because of His Grace. I'm praying for you today.
Grace and peace,
Ash
With His love,
Lisa
I am also remembering your sweet Audrey today :):):)
I have one small request: our of our dear internet friends (Angie and David) on the Nest lost her baby this past Wednesday, just a few days away from her due date (the baby died somewhere between 5am and 10am, when she went to the doctors). She found out early on (similiar to your situation with Audrey) that there was a problem in her pregnancy and so - we all prayed for a miracle. And prayed. And prayed. We all rejoiced when all the "specialists" couldn't agree on what was going to happen to this baby. Like you and Tod, we all hoped for the best. We tried to all prepare for the worst - but when the news came via a post on the Nest on Wednesday, we were all stunned and saddened and heart broken that our prayers were answered in a different way than we had hoped.
Angie was induced on Wednesday, and would deliver her baby - we haven't heard any updates yet but we know in our hearts that this must have been excrutiating for them. If you could lift them up in prayer, it would be wonderful. Her blog is called "When October falls" - I don't have a direct email address for her, but if you could pass the word to all your Sundays, it would be most appreciated. We are raising funds ourselves to help them cover hospital costs, or for a memorial item, burials costs, etc......
Forever yours in Christ:
Diane Taylor (Baltimore MD)
My husband and I have been trying to conceive since February 2008. We were blessed the following month and found out in April I was expecting. It was short-lived, as what started out as a nice suggestion by our OB to get an internal u/s so we could get a sneak peak of our baby, it turned into us learning about a missed m/c. We saw the baby bean growing, but lagging a little behind with an uncertain heartbeat. We heard from the doctor a day or two later and she asked that we come in again because the technician couldn't 100% verify the baby had a heartbeat. It all went downhill after that. We waited another week in prayer to give this baby a chance to grow and prove all wrong that he/she was a little behind but okay. A week passed and we learned that the baby hadn't grown since our first u/s over a week and half ago. We learned a few months later that our sweet baby was a boy and that he had trisomy 16. We miss him every day.
It has been 17 months since our miscarriage and 20 months since when our adventure of becoming parents began, and a God-given lifetime since I first wanted to be a mom. We're in the process of receiving fertility treatments (started Feb 09 for a medical background, and finally began treatment in Aug 09) and are in daily, constant prayer for a baby to bless us.
Being on both sides of infertility with our miscarriage and now unexplained infertility, they are both monsters and no one should have to go through this pain. But what a connection we have with others who are traveling the same path. Thank you for being a light to all of us on this road!
Its comforting to know that all our babies, even my tiny tiny boy, are up in Heaven, playing and singing, and glorifying Jesus. How I long to be able to meet my son one day and kiss his sweet face.
We lost one early this summer, on July 16. I really know now what you mean about the pain. But, our God is so faithful and always gives us a way to stand up under it. He is our hope and our deliverance!
I will pray for you and your family this week as well.
Megan
Amy H.
I do have 4 children on earth. My oldest is 16 and was placed for adoption at birth. I can't wait to hold him again also. My other 3 are 10, 5, and 10 months old.
Thank you for remembering our little ones along with your sweet Audrey.
I lost one baby at 15 weeks (my daughter's twin), another at 9 weeks, and a very recent ectopic pregnancy in which they had to remove my right tube, at 8 weeks.
The way you described it is exactly right. It hits you at certain times. It hit me as I was dropping my daughter off at preschool.
Interesting to think that there are so many women out there I am "envious" of, but I really can't know their stories, you know?
Blessings and prayers for peace of mind and healing.
With His Love,
Kaye
Psalm 46:10
Hannah Grace 12/18/05 (m/c at 11 weeks)
Colin Michael 8/25/06 (stillbirth at 32 weeks)
Airen Lee 11/1/07 (m/c at 10 weeks)
Dash Liam (m/c at 9 weeks)
Jacob Michael-- 6/8/04
and
Emily Anne-- 9/28/05
So grateful to be your mother. So so crushed to have you gone so soon. So looking forward to being reunited forever. So humbled by your precious, short lives. So completely changed by you.
I love you every day!
Beautiful girl who I long for even 10 years later and miss at the oddest times, when your sisters laugh, when the 4th graders line up for lunch, when I look at our family Christmas photo and you're not there....you are attached to the deepest part of me, forever, and this missing you is my pain and my priveledge.
Oh what a reunion it will be in Heaven sweet one, when I get my hands on you and look into those eyes that never opened on this earth. What a joy beyond imaging....
Also, gone but never forgotten is our little "Jaybird" who we lost just weeks into my first pregnancy. Another sweet child we'll finally hold and kiss in heaven.
My sweet baby is Seth, born on March 27, 2008 with Hypoplastic Left heart Syndrome. Lived with us until October 12, 2008 when he went to Heaven.
He is missed EVERY day...
I just lost my second baby on 10/6/09. It was a tubal pregnancy. I had emergency surgery that resulted in the removal of my left fallopian tube.
My friend and I just saw Selah in McBain, MI last night. It was such a great time. Today, however, I just want to crawl into bed and sleep. I know God has a plan, but it doesn't bring much joy right now.
I'm feeling for all you who have commented. Thanks for sharing your stories.
I became a member of the secret club that no one wants to be a part of in June 2004. We had only been married for about 9 months at that point and were so looking forward to meeting our first baby. We were told around 18 weeks that I had placenta previa and a two vessel cord. We then started a more regimented appointment schedule, with more frequent doctor visits with my regular OB and a Perinatologist. 4 days before my 28 week glucose test, an ultrasound would show that our baby boy had stopped growing between 23-24 weeks (just after our previous ultrasound) and no longer had a heartbeat. I never saw him that day. I will never, ever forget how the tech tried to break the news to us as gently as she could. As she started the exam, she was talking about going to her daughters soccer game after work, but we were all sure that it would be rained out. It did rain, literally and figuratively. I can tell you what I was wearing that day, what it was like to see the pain in my parents faces as they came to the hospital to be with us, having to go to the Labor and Delivery floor and seeing a brand new baby in a room with happy parents, and then having to go home to room full of baby clothes, a crib not yet put together and wait for 6 days before having the baby. Because of the placenta previa, we were only given 2 options, classical incision C-section or a D and E. I asked my doctor what she would do if she was in the same situation, and we agreed that because it was my first pregnancy, that a D and E would be the "safer" choice given the fact that we intended on having more children in the future and wanted to avoid having future C sections. After learning many terms I never wanted to know existed, we endured the D and E. I remember my parents and husband seeing me off to the operating room, my Mom placing her hand on my belly as I was wheeled away, saying goodbye to the baby. (I was also apparently so drugged up that I was joking about being Dale Earnhardt Jr zooming down the hall - at least I still had some humor left in my body.) I remember waking up and the nurse telling me that she was sorry for our loss and that she too had lost a baby. I remember asking the doctor that did the D and E (not my regular OB) when I was in and out of it in the recovery room to confirm if we had a boy or a girl and he didn't answer me. I remember being asked to fill out forms to name the baby, signatures for an autopsy and answering questions about "disposal of remains." We had talked about a few names, but never decided on one in particular. The day of the D and E, after I was out of recovery and we were filling out all thosee awful forms, my Husband said we should name him Oliver Lucas Anselmo. His initials stand for Our Little Angel. We had him cremated. A parent should never have to go to a funeral home to pick up their child's ashes. There was no compassion - we were in and out of the building in a span of about 10 minutes, with a small white plastic box. Not how anyone envisions bringing their baby home. We decided to scatter his ashes in the place where my Husband proposed to me, on the shore of Lake Superior, over the 4th of July weekend. My brother and his then girlfriend (now wife) found out just after we lost Oliver that they were expecting. They ended up getting married on Oliver's due date, September 7, 2004 in his honor and had a baby boy of their own the following March.
Happily, a year after scattering Oliver's ashes, we had a healthy baby girl on July 3, 2005. The entire pregnancy/delivery was emotionally and physically draining. Non-stress tests and ultrasounds twice a week, 6 weeks of bedrest. During labor her heart rate was dropping with each contraction, so I ended up having an emergency C-section. 2 years later on Dec 11, 2007, we had another healthy baby girl via C-section.
Some days I am grateful that I didn't have to go through a "normal" delivery with Oliver and that I didn't have to see him. Other days I wish I would have been able to physically hold him, even for a brief moment. To see his face, fingers and toes. To make imprints of those fingers and toes and maybe save a lock of any hair he may have had. All we have are a few ultrasound pictures.
We have been very open with our oldest daughter about her big brother. (Our youngest is still too little to understand.) She has a blanket that I made for him the night before we found out he was already gone. She occasionally asks questions and talks about him. She says he is our guardian angel "in the sky" and that he is part of the earth, sky, rain and flowers. She told us once that he wears all green and has green wings. The day after she told us that story, my husband opened a box a work and out popped a green feather. Proof of what we already knew, he is with us and does indeed have green wings.
Much love to you Angie, your family and all the others (vocal and silent) who have endured this incredible loss. Thank you for raising awareness and providing the opportunity for us to share our angel baby stories.
Elizabeth
On May 5, 2008, our second child Henry Ian was stillborn. The autopsy revealed a perfect, healthy little boy, so the doctors believed it was the cord wrapped twice around his neck that ended his life at 30 weeks. I still can't believe that that happened to us. It seems like someone else's story. I think about Henry all the time. I am broken into pieces, but the Lord continues to hold me together.
I am so thankful the Lord blessed us with Kate Isabel this March. She is such a joy. I am such a grateful Mother! Every breath she takes is a gift. Truly a gift.
Thinking and praying for all the grieving parents.
I too am a day late posting this...but I still feel an urgency to honor my 4 little babies who are now with Jesus. All were miscarried prior to 12 weeks gestation, between the years of 2002 and 2008. However! Praise God- He is so faithful! As I type this I am rocking our new little bundle of joy...she is really nothing short of a miracle. Lillian Rose made her way to our arms and our hearts on May 15, 2009! We also have another little girl- who just turned 6 years old. We are blessed- even through our loss!
I couldn't get on until today, but did pray for you all yesterday and lit multiple candles at 7pm last night.
I am the mommy of Faith Elizabeth who slipped away too soon 6 years ago. She was born a sleeping angel at 22 weeks, dying because of an umbilical cord abnormality. Our family understood this pain because we lost our second baby at 8 weeks, and before Faith, I lost another baby due to a ruptured ectopic pregnancy. God is faithful, as we have 2 beautiful girls born after that, truly a miracle due to the damage from the ectopic. While our hearts are soo full of love for our 3 strong boys and 2 beautiful miracles, they ache with longing to know our Faith. However, we take comfort knowing she is in the arms of Jesus.
I continue to pray for all of you, and remember your Audrey Caroline.
HUGS
Our sweet angel baby, Haley Joe, went to be with our wonderful LORD in March 2004. I went in for a normal OB/GYN check up & for the sugar test & they found out she measured 42 weeks & I was only 29 weeks gestation. An unltrasound was in order & they found that she had developed hydrops. Our sweet girl passed aaway that evening after they cut the cord. We will always remember sweet Haley, but we are blessed & at peace knowing that she is whole & in heaven.
I lit 8 candles in honor of my sweet Haley, the miscarriage I had at 17, & to all the other women who have lost a precious little one.
I think & pray for your family as well as so many other mothers who have lost a child.
http://www.jonathansbabyjournal.blogspot.com/
I'm pretty sure they used Selah's I Will Carry You for their video during the service. I hadn't listened to it since you posted a link here ages ago, but I'm quite certain those were the beautiful, powerful voices and lyrics I heard on Wednesday. Amazing.
I continue to pray for you and your family. Thanks for allowing us that privilege, and for choosing to step forward to bring glory to Christ through it all.
Sending love to you, my sister in Christ...
My thoughts and prayers are with all of you with empty arms and holes in your heart. And my thanks for all the blessings so many of you have received after heartache and loss.
Remembering Liam Michael (a family member's son) called home 2/27/009 at 20 weeks, his sibling called home July '08 at 12 weeks, and another sibling called home in Nov 2004 at 6-8 weeks.
Also remembering 2 angel babies my friend E never held in her arms. SO THANKFUL for her 4 earthly blessings.
Remembering A & D's angel baby lost at 12 weeks.
Praying for the Smith's and honoring Audrey's memory. So glad I stumbled on this strong, inspiring Christian blog early this year.
Peace and blessings to ALL!!
{{{HUGS}}}
Just two weeks ago, we said goodbye to our sweet baby boy, Chase, who passed away at 34 weeks due to a blood clot in his cord. He was beautiful and is deeply missed every minute of every day. He has three sweet big sisters who are helping heal my heart with their smiles and hugs! They make me thankful for the miracle of life the Lord has repeatedly blessed us with. But, our hearts hurt for our baby at the same time.
We are in prayer for everyone who has honored their babies here and are walking through the same grief we are. God bless you, Angie, for your amazing ministry. I have gained so much strength and encouragement from your blog--and from the beautiful songs of Selah--in the last two weeks.
Chelsea
Remembering Chase Allen, September 30, 2009
"...who is called by My name, whom I created for My glory, whom I formed and made." Isaiah 43:7
Thank you for the opportunity to write about our precious children, for wanting to know them and remember them.
And then I woke up on morning, 2 weeks before my due date, and my world came crashing down on me. I couldn't get her to move, no matter what I did. I called my OB, he had me come in, and we confirmed via ultrasound that her heart was no longer beating.
I was induced the next morning and Cora Rei made entered the world at 4:07pm on May 2, 2006, weighing 6lbs10oz and was 20 inches long. She was perfect. She had this beautiful curly red hair. I had dreamed of a little girl with curly red hair since I was a girl, and I knew that this little girl that I was holding, that I would never see smile, who would never say my name, was the little girl I had dreamed of. She had been with me my entire life, and I truly believe she's still close, waiting until we can be together in a way that we only got the chance to be for 8 1/2 months.
But for now I miss her more that words can say.
Allison
Since he was declared brain dead, we were able to donate his heart to another boy. That boy is now three years old. There is not a day that goes by that I don't miss my first born.
We have a daughter now. She is 13 months old. I wish she could have known her brother.
Thank-you Angie for allowing us to share our stories. I am so touched by the faithfulness of the women who read your blog.
Thank you for wanting to hear my story and for sharing yours.
joyful in hope,
Sunshine
I may never have more biological children, but I believe that God has a plan for me and that it will be more wonderful than I can imagine right now. Thank you for your prayers, for sharing your story with us, and for us to share our stories here as well.
After 21/2 yrs. of trying to conceive we got pregnant with our first child! Oh, the excitement. At 37 weeks we found out he had no heartbeat - he must have died during the night sometime as he was still moving when I went to bed the night before. I delivered him the next day and my husband and I were able to spend 17 precious hours holding him and loving him before the funeral home came for him. A year later, not having conceived we started the adoption process. After 5 months of having a referral for two sweet boys, we lost the referral. Ah, the pain. Were we not supposed to be parents?? We were given a new referral for two children that we adopted!! They came home with us in July of 2007. Lo and behold, while we were in Liberia picking up the children we found out I was pregnant! 21/2 yrs. after losing our first son Theo. So in fast motion we went from being parents with no children in our home to having three precious souls with us! I delivered our second bio child in Feb. of 2008. So now we have Blessing, Isaac and Isabel. In August 2008 I found out I was pregnant again!! Whoo-eeeee!! At 24 weeks of pregnancy I was admitted to the hospital - 5 days later I was delivered of a small baby girl - Jewel Serene - weighing in at 1 lb. 8 oz. She was so beautiful and strong - after 9 days of life she went home to everlasting life on Feb. 20, 2009. My God, why?? There is so much pain and loss swimming around in my heart. So many unanswered questions. Yet we walk by faith and not by our emotions. I cling to the fact that Jesus came to bind up the broken hearted. May He come in and bind up your wounds, dear women. One day we will be reunited with our precious children. What a day that will be.
Nearly a year ago, my husband and I finally got pregnant, after trying on our own until we finally saw a doctor to get help. As we knew we would never terminate a high-order pregnancy, we were conservative with the fertility meds... and from three eggs ovulated, we were blessed with triplets. We were so excited and in disbelief. At nearly nine weeks, pregnancy complications began with hemorrhaging and bleeding. While we would have preferred a scare-free pregnancy, I was grateful for the weekly, lengthy ultrasounds with a perinatologist and -now- for the ten weeks on strict bedrest when all I thought about was the babies.
By fourteen weeks, we knew we were having two boys and a girl; two weeks later I had felt their first kicks. Two weeks after that, I was rushed into emergency surgery due to a severe infection that was causing multiple-organ failure. Hours after admittance into the hospital, the doctors told us that I had a life-threatening infection and that to save my life, they needed to take the babies. They thought the source of my infection was in my uterus, where it would not respond to medication. I could not accept that protocol, and there was no way I would let them take our precious children for whom we fought for so long and endured months of bed rest and scares, and whom we loved so much. Their heart beats looked great on the ultrasound minutes before - surely they were fine! The surgery cleaned the infection from my abdominal organs but did not prove the infection was outside my uterus. After the surgery I was taken to the ICU, where only three hours later our babies were spontaneously born. Hope, Adam and Charlie came in the still-dark hours of March 24th, 2009. Had they not been delivered, I would have died - as I never would have consented to the doctors taking them, and the pathology report showed their placentas were the source of the e. Coli that nearly killed me.
That was almost seven months ago now, and not a day has passed that I have not cried for our loss. I am so comforted to know they are with our Father and I will one day again see them... but until then, it hurts.
I lost a baby at 9 weeks, but that baby will always be a part of our family.
We named "him" Wesley Randall, and I think of him around the date of my D&C and his due date.
It has been 7 years, and my heart still aches to hold and know that precious one.
God bless you - I have been praying for you and remembering Audrey.
Love,
Gina
~Kimberly
No matter how old a child is they will always be your baby!
I hope all who have lost a child young or old will find peace.
Until we meet again my sweet boy!
My friend needs prayer. She was 19 weeks 4 days pregnant when she went into (VERY) early labor and delivered her twins. They passed away almost immediately after birth. I cannot imagine what she and her husband must be experiencing. They had a memorial service on Saturday and the pain was palpable. Please keep them and their lost babies, Macie & Peter, in your prayers.
http://hagenhoopla.blogspot.com/2009/10/our-bab...
I am so sorry for all the women who have lost babies here. Whether you lost your baby at 4 weeks or 4 years, it is a terrible, almost unbearable pain to endure. I pray for all of you that God will comfort you and that he will bless you beyond your wildest dreams.
This is the site of a friend from growing up, who just found out at her 20 week ultrasound that though she will carry full-term, the baby will not survive. I believe the Lord led me to your site last week for a reason.
Thank you for your blog, and especially for this place you've created for mothers to share the stories of the children they have lost. I hope you continue to mark Oct 15 for many years to come.
You said you once lived in Japan. I did as well, and wondered if you remember seeing the little omizuko statues by the roadside near the temples? They are stone statues that represent stillborn, miscarried and aborted children. Mothers bring food and clothing for them and, since Japanese custom is to cremate rather than bury their dead, it effectively becomes the grave site for these children. I remember feeling so moved by this practice because obviously the pain of the mothers was so real and so ongoing. It seemed to me that we in the U.S. should have some similar place of mourning, and I think your site, and others like it, give moms a place to mourn and connects them with people to witness their mourning and to pray for them, which I certainly do often.
The Lord promises He will one day wipe away all tears. In the meantime, this is a holy work you are doing.
God bless you, Angie.
Lisa
Here is a blog about my granddaughter, who lived 10 days. Camden Jane was born 9/25/09 at 6:47 am, and died 10/5/09 at 6:47 am.
http://evanspk.blogspot.com/
Please pray for my family, we are also the Smith's. Our precious daughter died 5/12/2008 due to a cord accident.
Thank you for all you do. Audrey, Kate, Ellie and Abby are all such beautiful girls.
In His Love,
Brandy
I saw a story in the Daily Oklahoman today that I wanted to share with you, because it reminded me of your story here. Maybe the two of you could be a blessing to each other?
http://www.newsok.com/midwest-city-mom-turns-lo...
It also had a link to her personal blog with her story - http://vaydenjamesstewart.blogspot.com
I'm Mother to Alicia (7), Kate(5) and identical twins, Audrey & Evelyn (2). Kate was born 6/23/04 with Hydrocephalus, which only let her live a beautiful 13 days. I had 3 subsequent miscarriages after her death - and I truly believe that the Lord didn't feel I was truly ready. Once I was, the He blessed us with identical twin girls. Every day with them is a blessing that I am grateful for. Thank you for your constant prayers and for sharing your experience and Faith!
Brooke
I love your entire blog, but I am so grateful for this specific entry. To echo another post, it is nice to know our baby's are remembered by someone else...
I am 22 and have been married for 2 years to the most amazing man on earth. We found out we were pregnant (surprise!!) during his first week of law school. Then 8 days later, I miscarried at 6 weeks. That was 7 weeks ago. I am so grateful for the way the Lord has shown us both hope and peace during our time of heartache. He is an awesome and ever constant, never changing God.
~Sarah
Remembering our babies, and all the others that have been taken too soon!
I am writing on behalf of my older sister who lost her first and only pregnancy in 2005 at 12 weeks. She and her husband have been unable to conceive since, despite medical professionals being unable to find a conclusive reason why. She is still young, only 30. Please pray for my sweet sister, she would make such a wonderful mother and we all feel the grief this is causing both her and her husband. We really hope that she will be blessed with a child.
On a personal note, thank you for your blog. I find it so encouraging, even though I am somewhat of a struggling Christian.
I have emailed you before about my daughter Michelle she has had two miscarriages both at 9weeks and 1 ectopic pregnancy. We are just going to keep trusting our HEAVENLY FATHER HE knows our future HE is strengthening my daughter and son inlaw through this time. I just pray we will one day have a baby to hold but whatever HIS will is So we will be sitting listening to Selah sing I Will Carry You in Attica NY Thursday night knowing GOD knows best we love you and you have been such an AMAZING testimony to us
We lost our first baby in an early miscarriage last week - thinking of our Max in the presence of our Lord!
First of all, let me congratulate you on your new bundle. I pray that you are able to enjoy this pregnancy without fear.
Secondly, I was very touched by your words on this post that I am commenting on and I was wondering if I could borrow these words to share with family and friends? My daughter, Lilly, was lost due to ectopic pregnancy at 12 weeks. She would have been 4 on November 15th.. which is, ironically, my BFF's birthday.
Thank you.... for ALL that you do... for EVERY SOUL you touch.... for allowing us all into your life.
Jo
So little time with them, and yet they have all been such a large part of our lives, shaping who we are and our relationship with God.
Congratulations on your new gift. I look forward to praying you through!
Thank you for this post and the acknowledgment of the great loss miscarriage is.
I have wanted to share how you have helped my for a long time and feel that this may be the post that calls for me to finally do it. Last January I found your blog and continued to read it until I was current with all that was happening in your life. I found your strength amazing, inspiring, and so honest and for the first time in my life I turned to God with an open heart. Little did I know that 4 months later your story would help me heal in other ways. 3 ultrasounds by 9 weeks confirmed that we would never meet our little one. I can not even begin to thank you for the strength that I found through you and your story. It hurt, no denying that, but even through the worst of it I was able to appreciate how much more it could hurt, how much I had to be appreciative for and that I was strong enough to make it through this. Your story was part of my road to healing, thank you.
I just lost my fifth baby on Sept 28th. Had the D&C done that Friday. Had four previous losses from 2003 - 2005. I will never get over this - ever. But life does go on and I now have a little boy we adopted to care for and love. But one day, I will hold my sweet little babies that I never got to meet.
Thank you for doing this blog and for touching so many lives. Praying for you and your family, and for your current pregnancy.
Love,
Robyn
I know I am super late with this post, but man, it came at just the right time for me. I miscarried in May 2008 (first pregnancy). Even after the devastation, there was hope. After all, we had gotten pregnant by "accident" and we would just wait the prescribed amount of time and try again, right? Well...here we are...November 2009...and no baby, no pregnancy. God is refining us in ways we could never have imagined (and to be honest, in some ways that I don't like very much...ok, at all). I came across your blog and God has used it to bless me tonight. Thank you. God knew what I needed tonight...
Bless you,
Liesl
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Thanks for remembering. And I too, lit candles on October 15th.